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Lisa came and got the last of her stuff: tooth brush, comb, make-up, shirts, etc. I tried to get her to fool around (I’m a guy, I’m allowed to be callow and horny, right? ….. right??) but she kept laughing it off. Pretty sure she’s seeing someone new already. Guess I didn’t mean as much to her as I thought I did.

Talking to Nikkov about it makes me feel a lot better. Obviously he doesn’t talk back but it’s nice thinking that someone is listening to me. Comforting in a weird way, I guess. I’m having a hard time outlining a new story even though I had several ideas while I was working on Nikkov’s story. He grew in character so fast I have a hard time not trying to write him into these other, contrasting stories.

That grocery trip turned out great, also. I am so addicted to those little hamburger helper singles packs, I would like to shake the hand of whoever thought that up. I even like the spicy taco ones and I have never liked spicy foods. I think I’ll go heat one of those up now and I’ll tell Nikkov about some of those story ideas.

Diary,

Things are great. Been a while since I wrote in this but I’ve been working on that short story. It sold!! YAY!! A New England horror mag picked it up for a couple hundred bucks. Still, gets me in the door, right? It’s weird, I wrote it pretty quickly because it felt so natural but I’ve started talking to the main character of my story when I’m alone. I’ve always talked to myself, just the natural course of things when you’re alone so much, but now I specifically feel like I’m talking to Nikkov. It feels right, so I see no reason to stop.

Oh, that girl I was seeing, Lisa, she got upset with me, all the time I was spending getting the details of my story together that she quit calling or wanting to hang out. She was always complaining that all I talked about was the story and how it was playing out in my head. Well, now she’s played out, I guess that just goes to show you. She was fun though.

I have to head out for some groceries. Now that the story is over with I’ll be writing more here until I plan out my next one. Things are great, now just need something in the house to munch on.

-D